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[ she turns to look at her, ears flicking back, but she sits politely with her wings folded. Girl you look horrid. ]

I already told you that you attacked ME. Do you want me to show it to you, from my eyes?

[She's specifically trying NOT to be looked at!!!]

Yes.

Alright.

[ it's a bit sudden, the way the memory is foist upon her.

There's a sharp awareness of everything and everyone around her from her eyes, edges fuzzy from memory.

What isn't fuzzy is the way her gaze focuses immediately on the noise of Linnea bursting into view wherever Val was, and the way Val tracks each piece of weaponry-- claws teeth spikes tail-- but that natural tension doesn't actually increase much. There's a bristling confusion, uncertainty and concern, where she calls out--

Linnea?

And then the hissing beast lunges, sharp paw swinging, and all at once the world goes colorless and focused to a point where the only thing in her view is The Threat, diving out of the way of that attack.

She cuts the memory there because the rest is self explanatory. ]

[Her expression stays guarded, but she goes a little green as she watches herself.]

[Softly,]

I was told my den got flooded with gas. ...I think I hurt... several people.

I don't remember any of it.

I had a feeling, given the way you reacted.

[She shrinks a little into her nest of brambles.]

I'm sorry I hurt you.

[

Leans in a bit. ]

You are?

[Guarded, watching her carefully]

How are your injuries?

Dan Feng healed them.

Come out, Linnea?

...

[The rose bush closes up a little]

I can only think of one reason why you might have pursued me after all of that.

If I wanted to attack you I would have burned down everything here.

Eat these fish or else they'll go to waste.

[Her "voice" sounds a little despairing.]

What do you want from me?

I want you to come out and eat these fish.

... You apologized, so I don't really want anything else after all that.

[man she is WAY too paranoid to come out, let alone to eat those fish. valencia makes a living killing things like her, and now she's gone and given her multiple reasons. She has no clue what she might be thinking, and she's not in great condition to defend herself if things go pear shaped.]

...Can I eat them later?

I'm tired. I just want to be alone and sleep.

[ She makes a slightly disgruntled noise, but noses a bit at the brambles. ]

Let me in, then. I'll stay quiet.

... I know I've said some things, before, but I do consider you a friend.

[The brambles don't move]

In what way??? You've already made it clear you don't find me acceptable. Am I not one of the lesser creatures you hunt for the safety of your own? I have nothing of value I can offer you.

[pleading, softly despairing, tired:]

I don't want to fight you. I just want to live. I don't want to be hurt any more. Please just let me be.

... I guess it's the same as that I'm food, but somehow more important than that. Isn't it? I'm not totally incapable of changing my way of thinking.

I'm not looking to fight, Linnea. I'd rather not again, honestly.

Then why are you here????

[ ugh. Reshapes herself human, sitting in the dirt.]

I was worried?

As you can see, I'm back to my senses.

I'm not going anywhere near the Labyrinth again until it's safe.

About your well being, not if you'd attack again.

...

[There's a creaking sound of her shifting inside of her rose ball.]

I feel like my body did a bunch of stuff without me and I don't know what I did or who I hurt or who is mad at me. I don't know how it happened. I don't know how to protect myself from it happening again. I'm tired and scared and my body feels terrible.

I know. I'm sorry.

I don't know how to help, but I wanted to check on you. A lot happened.

Are you angry at me?

I would have been, if you hadn't apologized. But I'm not anymore, not really...

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