I make it a point to live my life as if there's no tomorrow. I do make plans, of course, but I don't want to have any regrets. Even the Troupe would be able to go on without me, should I ever fall. It makes it easier not to fear my own death.

[ but she's right about it being scary if it's happening to someone else ]

But then again, I think it'd be very different had I actually experienced it for myself like you did.